Old Wounds, Forever Pain

So the title explains it mostly. How much can I take of these people I'm forced to live with every other weekend? Today is Sunday thankfully, my last day here, then I get to go home to my Mom.

Ethan. That's what has me fuming. That little brat. Alright so Ethan is Michelle's child, and forcible my step brother. He has as I would call "Only Child Syndrome". Meaning he gets EVERYTHING he wants. This inflames me. Mostly because my father gives him everything to.

I remember getting yelled for hours my father. He made us stare at a wall for hours. He would yell and yell. I do believe this has left it's mark on me. He was mean to my mother, they fought a lot, but I so young. I was in first grade when he left, and despite how much I tried I remember every word said. I remember running up to him and he said "Daddy is going away for a while.", he was crying. When I was little I had little bunnies dolls, a family of bunnies. I gave him the one that represented me.

My brother refuses to see him because of the past and the things he punished him with.

My Father was cruel in him own way. He has to control the people he is around.... But everything I once knew has changed.... Was it for the better?

My Father married Michelle, but obviously not for love, no not love, money. Money is the root of all evil. Now I go to live with them every other weekend, and I know Michelle hates me. But yet I come every weekend to see I could catch a glimpse of the man my mom once loved, the one that loved me...

Now there it is Ethan this and Ethan that. I almost cried when my dad told me that he wasn't coming to the show 'Little Women' because Ethan had a rehearsal First Holy Communion. He was going to miss something I worked so hard on to see Ethan's REHEARSAL. I just want to scream "I'm your child! Love me!"

Ethan is a brat, and excepts everyone to bend to his wants. The kids 7 years old and I'm 14 and he rules over me! Things he does I remember doing and be punished but now my Dad just ignores it.

I do know that the events in my life have shaped me, I'm stronger then most. And embrace this. Ethan will always be weak, and me and my blood related siblings are strong and brave.