Don't Talk To The Deaf Ear

I'm sorry about the lack of posts. It's not that my life is boring and I have nothing to talk about, in fact my life is very exciting and filled with problems galore. But it's hard to make time to tell about everything. But (sorry about saying 'But' a lot) something today made me cry so I figure I should share....



So today was a half day (that's why I'm home now writing). Everything went normal until lunch...



*Flash Back*



My friend (I'm not even going to hide her name I'm so mad) Amber. (Yes a girl on this site) made a new friend called Joey. Well Hope and I don't like this new friend and we talked to Amber about it and she took it well for the most part. All was well for a while until today. Amber sat with Joey and said she would come over to see us soon. Hope and I didn't like that she was treating us like backup friends but we ignored that. She left and returned in a little bit.



But it was what Joey shouted at her that broke mt heart and enraged me.

Quote. "What are they your f***n parents?! No they're just bi****!" Unquote.

I said, "That was directed towards me... right?"

Amber replied, "Yes"



That was it she didn't yell at Joey she didn't stick up for me. If she didn't like and wouldn't get upset if I hurt I would have. (Yes I think of her feelings when she doesn't even care about her friend) So I cried and yet Amber made no move to comfort me (Not that I wanted her comfort anyway). I told her to leave and she did, she went back to that heartless freak (Yes I said freak!).



I was feeling hurt so I made an excuse to leave lunch. When I returned Hope said that Amber had come over and asked "What just happened?" Hope defended me and yelled that Amber should have stood up for us.



There is a part of that can't wait for him to break her heart. Mean? Yes. But I'm so feed up with how she treats me. I'm no one's backup friend. I refuse to sit here until she's ready to come crawling back to me. Will I ever forgive her? Depends on where this story takes us.



A quick message to Amber:



Dear Amber,



You say you have a voice... Learn to use it. You say you love me...Prove it. You say I'm your friend...Return those qualities. You don't hear what you need to. I hate do this but... find out who you are or you'll lose me. I will not be stepped on, not by you, Joey, or anyone. When you find who you are fine talk to me, but until then I wouldn't put up with all of this. I have more important matters then this petty fight, so screw it. If anything over the years I'd hoped I'd eared respect from you, but I shall not worry about someone if all my fears are in vain.



I was polite before but the nice half is over, I'll bitter if I want to...



~Mikayla.



Perhaps I'm just being cynical and angry, but I really think this right now. Maybe I won't think this tomorrow but I think it now... So kill me I'm anger.